some hasty ramblings concerning a lost past...
NovakaiserX: I'd like to create my own site
NovakaiserX: like kaisersoft
NovakaiserX: only better, and focused on me
NovakaiserX: I still enjoy kaisersoft
NovakaiserX: I'm impressed at what I did back then
NovakaiserX: and how much I accomplished
NovakaiserX: the design for the site is almost impeccable
NovakaiserX: the only problem would be the sidebar icons
NovakaiserX: I had the most frusturating ordeal trying to get them looking good
NovakaiserX: because I believed in consistency in design
NovakaiserX: and the applications and shit I was using were running out of trial time ---
NovakaiserX: -_-*
NovakaiserX: but I managed... although I never was able to get the link text looking good while sticking out
NovakaiserX: so they kinda just faded in
NovakaiserX: but oh well
NovakaiserX: I remember making a notepad icon
NovakaiserX: because I got into the hobby if designing site icons
HarlockHero: i'll let you in on an industry secret
NovakaiserX: of*
NovakaiserX: like "THIS SITE WAS MADE IN NOTEPAD"
NovakaiserX: but I made one that said
NovakaiserX: "NOTEPAD SUCKS"
NovakaiserX: which it did at the time
NovakaiserX: if anything, I'll use wordpad for the higher resolution and multi-colored text
HarlockHero: you made the notepad icon?
HarlockHero: i thought that was highly elite
HarlockHero: but anywayh
NovakaiserX: you didn't know?
HarlockHero: the industry secret
HarlockHero: /me draws you nigh
HarlockHero: see, all this talk about integrated design and consistent design
HarlockHero: that's all well and good
HarlockHero: but if you want something that really bamdazzles the populace there's just one place you can turn
HarlockHero: and i think you know who i am :O)
HarlockHero: who i mean*
NovakaiserX: well, I liked it because it showed that I took a serious-minded passion towards what I did
HarlockHero: http://www.andyart.com
http://www.screamdesign.com
HarlockHero: http://www.andyart.com
http://www.screamdesign.com
HarlockHero: http://www.andyart.com
http://www.screamdesign.com
HarlockHero: http://www.andyart.com
http://www.screamdesign.com
HarlockHero: http://www.andyart.com
http://www.screamdesign.com
HarlockHero: http://www.andyart.com
http://www.screamdesign.com
HarlockHero: http://www.andyart.com
http://www.screamdesign.com
HarlockHero: http://www.andyart.com
http://www.screamdesign.com
HarlockHero: http://www.andyart.com
http://www.screamdesign.com
NovakaiserX: no, I don't
HarlockHero: http://www.andyart.com
http://www.screamdesign.com !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NovakaiserX: ...
HarlockHero: :OD
HarlockHero: h0nk h0nk
NovakaiserX: if we were in an rpg battle
NovakaiserX: you would have just successfully landed a backstab
NovakaiserX: a critical one, at that
NovakaiserX: http://www.homestead.com/kaisersoft/
NovakaiserX: I loved homestead back in the day
NovakaiserX: it was the BEST free service
NovakaiserX: fast, efficient
NovakaiserX: the linktext is straightforward too
NovakaiserX: then they started charging :\
NovakaiserX: it was expected, I guess
HarlockHero: do they allow good stuff still?
NovakaiserX: they used to allow unlimited pages (I think) and 10 megs
NovakaiserX: which was awesome for me
NovakaiserX: especially since you were allowed 3 accounts
HarlockHero: i'll host your site and give you ftp access if you want. you can still keep a copy on something like homestead
NovakaiserX: and could chain them together
HarlockHero: for when my comp blows up
NovakaiserX: which meant 30 megs
NovakaiserX: of course, I don't think they would allow multiple instances of bandwidth caps
NovakaiserX: but that never really bothered me
NovakaiserX: I still got a lot of hits for a 2 year-dead site :\
NovakaiserX: check that counter out
NovakaiserX: "contact me through ESP! It's much quicker than snaily e-mail!



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NovakaiserX: dammit
NovakaiserX: bleef
NovakaiserX: contact me through ESP! It's much quicker than snaily e-mail!




NovakaiserX: I remember some stooge in #ohrrpgce confronted me about that
NovakaiserX: it was either #ohrrpgce
NovakaiserX: or somebody from dimensionrpg
NovakaiserX: which had the most idiotic webmaster, Viper-something
NovakaiserX: Brain did all the work
NovakaiserX: and Viper was like "it's cool and all dude, but I'd rather it be *my* work, ya know :\"
NovakaiserX: but he didn't feel like doing anything
NovakaiserX: so he just closed it down
NovakaiserX: then brain opened RPG X
NovakaiserX: (my idea :LP:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:YesyesI'maufkcinggeniusryes!!woot"
NovakaiserX: anyway
NovakaiserX: I never got around to doing much for that site
NovakaiserX: I wanted to write reviews, take screenshots, all sorts of l33t shit
NovakaiserX: but eh. It feel through
NovakaiserX: then I started working with Mynd
NovakaiserX: and Brain
NovakaiserX: that fell through for me
NovakaiserX: and brain stopped appearing online
NovakaiserX: then mynd stopped
NovakaiserX: now here I am
NovakaiserX: gut sagging
HarlockHero: you should write your autobiography up to this point
NovakaiserX: listening to a guy singing about giving roses to pretty ladies
HarlockHero: call it "it fell through"
HarlockHero: feature it on your new website
NovakaiserX: playing wizardry
NovakaiserX: not really accomplishing anything other than self-enjoyment and improved sense of gaming
NovakaiserX: remember rpg x?
NovakaiserX: I did the fucking splash page
NovakaiserX: I was so awesome
NovakaiserX: I had the l33test talent for a person my age
HarlockHero: yeah, i remember it
HarlockHero: i remember reading this one thread on the mb
HarlockHero: where brain was like "so much work -_-;;;"
HarlockHero: and you were like 'don't work so hard, dude"
HarlockHero: and he exploded on you
NovakaiserX: yeah
NovakaiserX: but waddya gonna do
NovakaiserX: I was pretty moronic back then
NovakaiserX: less depressed... but more dellusional
NovakaiserX: at least I put 200% into everything that I did
NovakaiserX: because I enjoyed being better than everyone else
NovakaiserX: people made fun of me online, even
NovakaiserX: I remember there being some b.s talk in #ohrrpgce
NovakaiserX: over kaisersoft
NovakaiserX: they must of thought of it as like longetech or something
NovakaiserX: but I didn't care
NovakaiserX: cause I knew they were idiots
HarlockHero: for some reason, i've always been taken "seriously" in the community
HarlockHero: i can't account for it
NovakaiserX: either hiding behind the creative efforts of steve on redmurdock software
NovakaiserX: or not doing anything at all
NovakaiserX: I even have dexdrive saves on my fucking site
NovakaiserX: that's one of the last active pages
NovakaiserX: becuase I had to delete all of them besides 3, I think
NovakaiserX: I worked so hard
NovakaiserX: better put, diligently
NovakaiserX: I had a vision... I wanted to create my own community
NovakaiserX: and I held nothing back in achieving that
NovakaiserX: those counter stats aren't arbitrary
NovakaiserX: I may have made an ass out of myself numerous times
NovakaiserX: but I got attention
NovakaiserX: and that's what mattered
NovakaiserX: If I ever made a demo of saga back in the day
NovakaiserX: it would have been THE ohr creation to beat
NovakaiserX: because I saw everything else lacking in effort, integration, ambition
NovakaiserX: it was like "Lol, I made uh game! duhhhhhhhh!!!! :OP"
NovakaiserX: I couldn't understand it
NovakaiserX: here they have one of the greatest opportunities available
NovakaiserX: after playing all the commerically available stuff out there, the player finally gets a chance to show the world what he thinks a good game is
NovakaiserX: and we have crap
NovakaiserX: "lol!!!! here's my umpteenth demo!!!!! I'm so fickled-minded and weasly-willed that I can't concentrate on one project long enough to accually accomplish anything!!!! :P"
NovakaiserX: the one thing that really kept me going
NovakaiserX: was fuabmx
NovakaiserX: I felt a seething rivalry between me and whiteowl
HarlockHero: i preferred origin to fuabmx
NovakaiserX: everybody regarded his game as "TEH BEST YET!!!" :P:P:P
HarlockHero: origin made me take ohr seriously
NovakaiserX: and I planned to overshadow his efforts 100000x times
NovakaiserX: once I was done, nobody would have been able to even look at my game without pissing on themselves
NovakaiserX: but.... *sigh*
NovakaiserX: it just isn't like it used to be
NovakaiserX: I don't believe I played origin, although it was probably one of the games I said I'd download every other day
NovakaiserX: and never got around to it
NovakaiserX: I never really took too much interest in other people's games
NovakaiserX: when I did play them
NovakaiserX: I enjoyed them for the same reasons as the creators did
NovakaiserX: (assuming that the creators actually did)
NovakaiserX: I saw them as being indivdual efforts being put forth to make something
NovakaiserX: not as a complete game, but rather a symbol of the creator's personality, tastes, etc
NovakaiserX: although even with this in mind I also went about playing other people's games because I always wanted to see how much better I could do something myself
NovakaiserX: remember honts?
HarlockHero: yeah
NovakaiserX: even today that's a better game than half the blag out there
NovakaiserX: although the sad truth is that most people don't take an interest in it like they used to... or it may just be me who changes my perception of the community
NovakaiserX: changed*
NovakaiserX: honts probably has the best fake plotscripting segment ever
NovakaiserX: the whole intro was coded by me
NovakaiserX: and me alone
NovakaiserX: it was fucking awesome
NovakaiserX: having the ability to check out a website on a computer
NovakaiserX: and read different posts
NovakaiserX: with multiple choices that become available after time
NovakaiserX: blah, scratch that last im x-x
HarlockHero: i remember that
NovakaiserX: what I meant to say is that you would have to play through it at least twice in order to read every comment
HarlockHero: and how you had community members respond to you in a fiery manner
NovakaiserX: yeah
NovakaiserX: because the idiot you played as... Nick something, I forget the last name
NovakaiserX: just made games based on arbitrary decisions
HarlockHero: his game was called fantasy warriors or something
NovakaiserX: and was like "LOL TEH GAME FANATASY WARRURZ IS DE BEST GAME EVA!!!!"
NovakaiserX: yes
NovakaiserX: YES
NovakaiserX: FANATASY WARRIORS
NovakaiserX: he was so dellusional... and I impress myself to this day with the language I utilized in achieving a believable character
NovakaiserX: I was making honts because I wanted to see better efforts out there
NovakaiserX: better developed games
NovakaiserX: a seriousness concerning the issues of game development
NovakaiserX: not just the lackaday efforts and petty flamewars everybody took part in
NovakaiserX: but no matter how great they were... the only person to appreciate all these efforts though... was me ;_;
HarlockHero: i remember offering to help with honts immediately after seeing it
NovakaiserX: god, I don't know what I can do now
NovakaiserX: I never released saga because it had to be the best game ever created
NovakaiserX: I couldn't settle for anything less
NovakaiserX: and I was only satisfied in my efforts
NovakaiserX: nobody elses
NovakaiserX: as everyone I knew was totally inept at the time
NovakaiserX: unfortunately, my visions were so grand even I couldn't live up to the standards that I wanted to achieve
NovakaiserX: after awhile, I got stumped, because I started to doubt the ohr's technical abilities
NovakaiserX: it just wasn't enough to allow me what I wanted to do
NovakaiserX: even with the emergence of plotscripting
NovakaiserX: it wasn't enough
NovakaiserX: but back then, I didn't have much competition
NovakaiserX: I only saw fuabmx and evildead as the only opposition
NovakaiserX: each a respectable lv. 20 something warrior/sorceror/ninja/etc
NovakaiserX: but I knew they were easily defeatable
NovakaiserX: but now
NovakaiserX: the actual competition left is stronger
NovakaiserX: wider, larger
NovakaiserX: I'm just not up to the task anymore
NovakaiserX: all I can do is create games that are touchstones of personal tastes and creativity, but I don't know if I can achieve that elusive no.1 rank anymore
NovakaiserX: or no.1 status*
NovakaiserX: granted, I know it's almost impossible on an objective scale
NovakaiserX: but what I mean is that I'd like it to be the most shining example in game creation by an individual
NovakaiserX: it wouldn't have to be liked by everybody, but nobody would be able to doubt it's quality
NovakaiserX: and perfection in execution, design, and artwork
NovakaiserX: but it's all gone now
NovakaiserX: all that's left is a :\ me
NovakaiserX: and a -_- me
NovakaiserX: mostly just plain :(
NovakaiserX: which is easily understable by anybody who recognizes the basic emoticons